Empty words = full heart

Brief overview of the past 22 days:

Stella is pretty much awesome and we are growing to love her more and more each day. She makes all of these facial expressions, smiles a lot and even giggled the other day. I think she likes music. She does this little whimper thing when she eats and she's starting to make this other little noise that I can only explain as her trying to hear her voice. Its all so darling! 

Not saying everything she does is fantastic. Our lack of sleep is not fantastic. 

On Monday it was our turn to sign papers at the agency. Which meant I had to trudge on down to the bank and empty our 'Baby B' savings account. You know, the one that YOU helped build. Ah it got me so emotional. Have you ever wondered how much your friends are putting away for their kids college fund? Or what percentage they put into their savings account each month? Perhaps those things are on my mind because a lot of you have sacrificed those things for us. Its not just monetary either. You laid down at night and actually remembered to pray before you fell asleep and you spoke to God about us. You might have prayed for me to get pregnant or you prayed for Nick to be able to support my emotional needs or you prayed that we would continue to be faithful and not become bitter. Or you prayed for peace in the storm and acceptance of what God was telling us. Or you fasted. Any way you look at it, you sacrificed something for us. I can't even begin to explain what that means to us. Words that have been written in a card might as well be empty because the feeling in my heart cannot be written down. We will never be able to express how grateful we are. We could not have asked to be surrounded by a more faithful, loving, group of people than those that God has hand picked to be in our book. God has used you to create a family and answer our most genuine, painful, faith-trying prayers. If you ever find yourself wondering what you've done for the Kingdom I hope that you remember this one time God asked you to step out in faith and be used by Him to change lives. In my book you get a "Well done, good and faithful servant". 

Adoption Update

I wanted to give y'all a quick update on what's been going on with the adoption!

We have met twice with the birthmother and once with the birthfather.

Her doctor had her on bed rest because she thought she was going to be early. Since we thought the baby was going to be here already, our friends and family threw us a Welcome Home party which turned into more of a baby themed party. It was awesome!

We fixed up her room, it's so pretty! We painted and assembled furniture...okay Nick mostly painted and assembled furniture. I helped move it in the room and wiped it off. I am not so handy and he really is so it works out.

So we've met the birth mother and father. Had her party, to which she no-showed (DI-VAAAH) Prepared her adorable room with purples and dark wood. All we need is...

A BABY!

Today is Stella's official due date and according to my cell phone log she is not here yet! Thinking that she would be here already and not having her here has been difficult for me. Every time my phone lights up or makes a noise I think, "this is it!". It is not it. I think about her almost every waking minute. And almost every sleeping minute. I am not God so I don't know when she will be here. I wish I did. I hate not knowing. All I do know is that she will be here when God delivers her; regardless of what the doctor says, or what the calendar says, or what I say! I do know that this...this right here...this wait...this is in God's wonderful plan and I don't need to fret about it.

We are very anxious to meet her and just waiting for the call and we know everyone else is waiting for our call. We are so appreciative of everyone's support and we love the excitement and will gladly fuel that fire with more information as soon as we have news to pass on! As of right now, we don't have any pertinent news to share but when we do it will be that we have a baby! So look out for our text, call or Facebook updates!

Here's to hoping the next post includes pictures of the five of us! (Lola and Faye...hello!!)